Unending Love

I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times,
In life after life, in age after age forever.
My spell-bound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs
That you take as a gift, wear round your neck in your many forms

In life after life, in age after age forever.

Whenever I hear old chronicles of love, its age-old pain,
Its ancient tale of being apart or together,
As I stare on and on into the past, in the end you emerge
Clad in the light of a pole-star piercing the darkness of time:

You become an image of what is remembered forever.

You and I have floated here on the stream that brings from the fount
At the heart of time love of one for another.
We have played alongside millions of lovers, shared in the same
Shy sweetness of meeting, the same distressful tears of farewell -
Old love, but in shapes that renew and renew forever.

Today it is heaped at your feet, it has found its end in you,
The love of all man's days both past and forever:
Universal joy, universal sorrow, universal life,
The memories of all loves merging with this one love of ours -
And the songs of every poet both past and forever.

Rabindranath Tagore

"I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I'm very sure of one thing. I'm sure that I just want to be with you" - Henry, 26 Oct 2004.

Those words, said on a chilly autumn evening one October, have continued to brighten my life 2 years down the road. I'll always remember that walk down the winding path back to Runkle Hall when you said those sweet sweet words to me; the first time I slipped my hand into yours and you gripped it tight; our first tentative kiss; the nightly walks around Penn State, staring at the stars from the gazebo - all the beautiful little moments we shared during the first flush of our relationship. And 2 years later, from the cute guy with the shy smile whom I first got to know during orientation, you've become my best friend and soul-mate. Things are just as beautiful and every moment spent with you is as wonderful, if not more so, as when we first started. Thank you baby, for loving me the way you do.

Happy 2 Years sweetie.

New job is awesome! I love love love what I'm doing, and everything is just SO relevant to my major. And my colleagues are just simply amazing. Everyone is so friendly, and already, the place is beginning to seem like home. I know the hours are going to be crazy, but I can't wait to really get started! A lot of the motivation stems from the interest that I have in my job, as well as the fact that I know I'm not just another pencil-pusher -- that my job has real significance.

okies, hafta rush off now. Am going to IKEA with Henry to buy stuff to decorate my office cubicle!

Ohohoho! It's been a long time since I last updated eh? Come the 10th of July, I will no longer be a political science undergrad. Instead, my 16 years of education will have paid off and I will finally have my degree scroll in my hands. Am extremely thankful that my final year slacking did not have an adverse impact on my grades, and that I will be able to graduate with my desired class of honours. I don't know how that happened, but I'm very thankful still, especially since it was my grades that secured me of a job fairly quickly and painlessly. Next Monday, I shall join the ranks of the overworked everywhere.

In the meantime, life has been an absolute joy, the way life often is when you are free from responsibility and have a special someone to spend your days with. Eurotrip was such a blast (albeit a hideously expensive one). Barcelona has got to be one of my fave cities ever... I just love the relaxed atmosphere and the sense of carefree spontaneity there. I love how there's music and laughter and free performances surprising you at every turn and every corner. Even getting lost in Barcelona (something we became experts at) was enjoyable. We went to Mallorca after that where we spent all our days discovering the most pristine beaches... as well as getting totally sunburnt. Ouccchhhh. Venice was next on the agenda, and although I've seen SO many touristy postcards and images of Venice, nothing truly prepared me for the splendour that the city is known for. Romantic, it definitely is. More surprisingly, Venice is also a foodie's delight. I had the best Italian food I've ever tasted in my life here. Rome sadly, could not live up to the high standards of culinary delight that Venice had set. But noone goes to Rome for the food- not when there's the Colosseum to visit, or the Pantheon, or Trevi Fountain. Not forgetting Vatican City and the glorious Sistine Chapel. We were at our most touristy in Rome, all intentions of being cool backpackers having been forgotten. But well, when in Rome... The last place we visited was Nice and ahhhhh! Nice was very nice indeed! Hahaha. We suntanned at the Cote D'Azur, at the French Riviera, (by then our sunburns had healed), and never have I felt more glamourous! (Or encountered more gorgeous bodies... the shame!) The time we spent in Nice was way too short, but it's ok, that just means a fixed destination for our next vacation!

Aside from coming back from vacation, graduating, and preparing to start work, the cherry on top of my happy ice-cream comes in the form of news that Henry will be transferring to a college here. No more long-distance relationship, hurray!

Te amo, mi querido

I guess it's about time I updated this thing. I'm not sure if anyone even reads it anymore though. And for me, the lure of blogging has disappeared. In any case, a brief update (for phantom readers out there) on my life. This semester is crazy, quite possibly the craziest semester in NUS by far. "Busy" just doesn't begin to describe it. Also I alternate between being really joyful at the thought of graduating and being resigned at the possibility of graduating with a less than desired CAP (thanks to last semester's horrendous results). And then I either try to delude myself by thinking, hey you know, CAPs don't matter all thaaaat much, or I just get anxiety attacks thinking ohmygod ohmygod I am NEVER gonna get a job! My mental acrobatics can be just as tiring as school itself.

I'm also in the midst of my job-hunting process, and by that I mean I'm only starting to write my resume. And registering to attend career fairs. Serial procrastinator at work...

But what I REALLY came here to say is, I miss my baby. He's in Orlando for Spring Break right now, and you would think that being in a long-distance relationship, that wouldn't actually make any difference. But it does. And I miss him. Very much. And it's a combination of longing and quite possibly PMS that I feel like crying when listening to Azure Ray. Seriously people, go check them out. I can't quite describe their music, but it is just BEAUTIFUL.

So i'm waiting for this test to end
So these lighter days can soon begin
I'll be alone but maybe more carefree
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly
I was afraid to be alone
Now im scared thats how id like to be
All these faces none the same
How can there be so many personalities
So many lifeless empty hands
So many hearts in great demand
And now my sorrow seems so far away
Until i'm taken by these bolts of pain
But i turn them off and tuck them away
till these rainy days that make them stay
And then i'll cry so hard to these sad songs
And the words still ring, once here now gone
And they echo through my head everyday
And i dont think they'll ever go away
Just like thinking of your childhood home
But we cant go back we're on our own
Oh,
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
Ill find it in myself
So were speeding towards that time of year
To the day that marks you're not here
And i think i'll want to be alone
So please understand that i dont answer the phone
I'll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls
Until i can see nothing at all
Only particles some fast some slow
All my eyes can see is all i know
Ohh..
But i'm about to give this one more shot
And find it in myself
I'll find it in myself

Random snapshots from a most wonderful vacation, spent with the most awesome guy and his extremely loving family!


Sunrise (sunset?) and the anticipation of finally going to New York















I lurrrrve Rockefeller Centre


















And of course, Times Square















Where we got our portraits done


















Snowboarding in Vermont!


















Happy at Broadway!














Freezing in Quincy Market, Boston














To watch the most HILARIOUS hypnotist show ever!














In love at the Charles River, by MIT














Ahhhh... MIT!














Christmas with the Roxas family... Thank you, from the bottom of my heart, for showering me with so much love and attention, not to mention all the wonderful gifts!






My favourite Roxas... I love you